July 03,1995 was the day you entered our crazy world. It was a day I will never forget. I remember spending the 4th of July in the hospital while everyone went out and celebrated., I held you in my arms ,looking out the hospital room window that night.  We had a perfect view of the firework show as they lit up the sky.  Today I am left with only an image of what you would be today at 20 years old.  No matter what , i know you would make me proud. I love you,  i miss you and I cant wait to be by your side.  Some days are harder to keep going without you. I feel myself dying inside more and more as the years go by.  I try to be strong. The pain of losing you along with the obstacles my life has created is a burden difficult to endure.  I'll keep fighting through the struggles until my day comes to rest by your side.